Are you “spiritual?
If you are struggling to figure out what that means, then you get the point I am trying to make. “Spiritual” is way too vague to really have meaning. The guy who stands on the mountaintop watching the sunrise calls it a “spiritual experience.” The person who says of the recently dead (of whom he knows nothing), “Well he’s in a better place,” is expressing a spiritual sentiment. The person who tries to live his life well, “imitating Jesus and Socrates” has some sort of spiritual ideal in mind.
Such series as “Seventh Heaven” and “Touched by An Angel” capitalized on the fact that people are “spiritual” beings. Plenty of people said the shows made them “feel good,” and know that “everything happens for a reason,” and that “if we look hard enough we will find God in everything.”
However “spiritual” all of this may be, it isn’t even nearly Christian. It has nothing to do with the cross.
Contrast the popular vague spirituality with the sharp and profound declaration of John the Baptizer, “Behold, the Lamb of God that takes away the sins of the world!” Scripture takes us from the trivial spiritual feelings of sinful mortals to the very words of God. When He speaks to us, He speaks of our utter lostness, and of His infinite and unmerited love, and of the terrible cost at which we have been redeemed. “He… did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all…” (Romans 8:32).
The Christ who saved you is not just a pleasant image you make up to feel good. He is God in the flesh. He was born as you were born, lived as you live except for being righteous in every way, and died a bloody sacrificial death. Finally he rose in His own, now glorified, body as all who believe in Him will one day rise from the dead.
Don’t search for Jesus, for truth, in vague spiritual feelings. Find Him in His word.